It's about letting go...

Its been almost a year...and I still hurt inside...

After three and a half years of being together, she called it quits in August 10 last year...and that would be the end of it all. No more calls, no more text messages, no more "I love you"s...a colorful relationship became a monochromed wall of sweet memories forever etched in my heart...it was great while it lasted, and tormenting when it ended.

I tried to hide her face behind the clicks of my camera, erase her name from my lips and forget her name...but I couldn't keep her off my side, as she was with me whenever I wake up each morning, whenever I work and whenever I smoke a cigarette...she was beside me all the time...

I wished her the best of everything, everything that I couldn't possibly give her..and yet I hurt inside, I still cry, I still long for her embrace...

I saw her again last Sunday, and she was gorgeous as usual...she talked to me as if I was a good friend..and though I appreciated it, I hurt more than before...